Thirty

“Thirty”

Just a number to some, one score and half again,

But to me, much more, these three decades with my best friend.

A mere friend, at first, a chance meeting, a harmless game,

You said I was “obnoxious”; I wanted to know your name.

We laughed when Willard warned us, “You might meet your future mate,”

In the hopes that he was right, I asked you on a date.

Was a memorable night for us, although my face blushed with shame,

We shared popcorn but no glances, as we sat through Purple Rain.

Four years later, down the aisle, time to give this marriage a try,

Our guests praised my tearful emotion, not knowing I had pink eye.

Not long after, another oath, this time to “support and defend,”

The Air Force gave us orders, “Be in Oklahoma by year’s end.”

There was romance, lots of love; as for passion, it was strong,

Then your water broke in the parking lot, and Jason came along.

Next came Valdosta, Georgia, along with Kyle, another son,

We built a home in a wooded grove, and gathered pecans just for fun.

Then onward to Texas, I still remember our first big fight,

Birds don’t nest in Cowboy boots; you know I was right!

Off to Illinois next, for the Cardinals we’ll cheer,

Then the orders said Alabama, I studied war for a year.

You asked for some bratwurst, so to Germany we went,

Eleven countries in two years, still in love, still content.

Ate some schnitzel, saw the sights, loved what Europe was about,

But when young Kyle yelled “Hiel Hitler!”… it was time for us to get out.

Next stop: Virginia, where we made so many friends,

But if I don’t make it to heaven, it’ll be the Pentagon again.

My career winding down, what was next on the slate?

Better pack some sunscreen, we’re headed for the Sunshine State!

Raising two sweet boys, you’ll agree was the best,

Then one day we looked around; we were alone in an empty nest.

We’d traveled so much, should we stop and settle down?

Nah, let’s get an RV, become gypsies, and travel round and round!

They ask us, “Where you from?” An easy answer for most,

For us, not so simple, as we travel from coast to coast.

May I suggest a better question, a favor for this wordsmith,

Ask not where we’re from, but who we’re traveling with.

You see, the difference in our journey, as we travel far and wide,

Has been God at the center, and you, Jan, by my side.

What a journey it’s been, what an incredible, fulfilling life,

Three decades later, dear, and I’m so thankful you’re my wife.

Our love still fresh and growing, our marriage strong and sturdy,

We’re in this till our deaths, but for now, let’s celebrate thirty!

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Finding Peace in Repentance

“When I kept silent, my bones wasted away through my groaning all day long.”          – Psalm 32:3

The murder of Frank Wesley McAlister had remained unsolved for 25 years. That all changed in January of 2018. During a televised interview, Brian Keith Hawkins of Redding, California made a surprise confession: He had killed Frank McAlister in 1993, with the help of two accomplices. The trio planned to meet McAlister under the pretense of a meth transaction. Instead, they robbed him, stabbed him to death, and ditched his car.

After confessing, Hawkins finished a Pepsi and cigar and then turned himself into local authorities. He and his accomplices were arrested and remain in jail.

Brian Keith Hawkins

What causes a man to confess to a crime and turn himself in? In this case, the murderer provided an explanation:

“Horrible, horrible, absolutely horrible every day,” Hawkins said to describe his life since the murder. “Almost every minute of every day has been a nightmare.” According to Hawkins, his victim wasn’t the only one to lose his life that day.

“It’s kinda weird that Frank never even got to have a life and neither did I,” he said in an interview. “We were teenagers and now I’m 44 and still haven’t had a life, and now probably most likely won’t anyways.”

Hawkins said that he has been remorseful ever since the incident, but it was ultimately finding faith in God that led to his confession.

“I’ve been through hell my whole life because of this,” Hawkins explained. He said he knows that God has forgiven him, but that wasn’t enough. The wrong couldn’t be undone, but he could now do the right thing. So, he contacted the family to beg for forgiveness. He then turned himself in so that a judge and jury can decide his punishment.

Today’s passage is taken from a psalm of David. The note from the margin reads: When you have sin in your life and do nothing about it, there is no peace.

Campbell Morgan describes it as “a Psalm of penitence, but it is also the song of a ransomed soul rejoicing in the wonders of the grace of God. Sin is dealt with; sorrow is comforted; ignorance is instructed.” James Montgomery Boice adds, “This was Saint Augustine’s favorite psalm. Augustine had it inscribed on the wall next to his bed before he died in order to meditate on it better.”

I suspect Brian Keith Hawkins will spend the rest of his life behind bars. He has lost his freedom, the consequence of a 25-year-old crime. However, by finding God, turning himself in, confessing his sin, and asking for forgiveness, he will find mercy and peace.

#FaithInTheMargins

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